Today everyone probly was reminded about that week when i lost the baby and i wouldnt talk to anyone.But this was worse even Mark looked worried.Probly coz he cant read anything from my mind.Probly coz there is only one thing in my mind.Its all my fault!Its all my fault!How could you! those are the only things in my mind at the moment.
After I put Espoir back to bed i went to bed too.I had a dream where i saw that wolfe thing by the shops at night behind Abbey but she didnt notice and the then demon walked on a twig and it snapped.She turned around and scremed.But this scream would wake the dead but no one came out.When the demon came closer she started yelling
"HELP!PLEASE!!!!NO PLEASE DONT HURT ME PLEASE!!!"Was what she kept screaming and then when the demon was right infront of her she whisperd somthing that woke me right up."Zack. . .Zack i. . miss you. . i wish you where with me.I love you"And then the demon jumped onto her.Then i screamed.I screamed as loud as i could and then i herd Mark
"Zack.Zack your ok.Zack calm down"Mark said and then pulled me into his arms.I screamed for a while longer and then i just started crying.
"Its ok"Mark kept reapetng"Its ok"And then i felt Espoir nexto me and he moved to come into my lap.He looked into my eyes and then he lay down and let my cry
I stopped crying when Espoir let out a little cry
"Your hungry,hey?"I said my voice cracked 4 timed.Then i got off the bed and looked at Mark
"You ok?"He asked looking worried
"You must be considering leaving my"I said and it was true to me.Why would he stay with a weirdo like me
"Coz i love you"He said and then was also off the bed
I didnt talk to anyone and nether did Jesse we just walked around the house.After a while Mark took Espoir from my arms coz i was making him feel sick.And then after a while i just burst out crying.I dont know why i just did.And everyone would comfort me and Jesse even Nic looked sad.I just couldent bother looking long though.I just sat on the floor staring infront of me.After a while i heard the others talk
"Will they be ok?"Asked Zac.But his voice was husky
"I dont know"Said Sam and she sounded scared
"Dont look at me.Every time i touch one of them i come up with nothing"Nic said
"Its the same with me.Every time i try looking into there minds.Its. . . blank"Mark said and i heard him better coz he was nexto me.
I got hungry after a hour.I didnt even bother thinking about it.I just got up and walked to the fridge but Mark beet me there and gave me somthing.I dont know what it was i just ate it.Then i came here to the computer.I dont know whay i just did.But it makes me cry more.And the same with Jesse.
Im going to go now.I cant handel this.It hurts to think about it let alone write about it.
*Zack*
